Remember that post where I said I didn’t want to whine? Yeah, well …
The title of this post is the title of a song by one of my favorite bands, Depeche Mode. The song isn’t that great really but does pose some interesting ideas. “Don’t turn this way. Don’t turn that way. Straight down the middle until next Thursday.” That’s one lyric and I’ve been feeling that way in my life so much lately.
As far as my work/life balance, I can’t set to get the balance right. If I’m suceeding in one area, I’m failing in the other. Lately, I feel as though I’ve been failing in both. I’m behind at work, trying to catch up, working late and because of that the dishes are piled in the sink and we barely have clean clothes to wear because I haven’t been doing laundry. I’m tired and cranky and tend to yell more than I should. I’m depressed because it seems like I’m clawing away at this tunnel I can’t get out of. Just when I see the light, it seems someone or something comes along and says “Nope, back in the hole!” and I’m kicked down again.
“Straight down the middle until next Thursday” — then the next Thursday, then the next Thursday. “You think you’ve got a hold of it all. You haven’t got a hold at all.”
So what I want to know … to anyone who might still be reading … if you’re a working mother and you’ve found a solution what is it?